Thursday, December 2, 2010

Three steps forward, two steps back and Chocolate Chip Cookies

This is dedicated to Shaun. It is also dedicated to someone who loved me enough to tell me that although the end result of my work is not what I expected, it is not the end of the world. I especially want to thank Penny for sharing this rose with me and the world which was a special gift from her husband. Sometimes they are more beautiful when left to grow according to God's plan.






Chocolate Chip Cookies
3/4 cup butter, softened
1/4 cup shortening
1 cup brown sugar
1/2 cup granulated sugar
3/4 teaspoonful baking soda
1/2 teaspoonful salt
2 eggs
1 teaspoonful vanilla extract/flavoring
2 1/2 cups all-purpose flour
1 12 ounce bag (2 cups) semi-sweet chocolate chips

Preheat oven to 375 degrees

Mix butter and shortening with mixer on high 30 seconds then gradually add sugars, baking soda and salt. Add this mixture to the flour and mix by hand until well mixed. Stir in chocolate chips.

Drop by teaspoonful onto ungreased baking dish about 2 inches apart. Bake 8-10 minutes or until edges are slightly browned.

Shaun is the son of my niece. That makes him my first great-nephew and he has always owned a special part of my heart. This year he married a wonderful girl and he became a dad. With these changes, his priorities began to change too and he was willing to openly admit he loved his bride and his son more than he thought he was capable of. He also openly admitted making a cooking mistake. He was making cookies and substituted baking powder for baking soda. He said he thought the cookies looked different but the real test was tasting them and he will never forget the difference in the taste. It was definitely not the taste he was expecting. I told him that every cook who has ever lived has made a similar mistake even if nobody knew it and we never forget what that taste was like. He took two steps forward and slid back one. He had a plan, it did not work out as planned but he took responsibility and learned something in the process. The part that means so much to me is he shared that process with me and others.

That's what life is about. Stepping out, trying and sharing the results with the people in your life who care to listen. I am so blessed.


Psalm 31:3 Since you are my rock and fortress, for the sake of your name lead and guide me.

Love,
Nana

Monday, May 31, 2010

Gifts of my son to me and Potato Soup

This story is dedicated to the soldiers who have fought for centuries for what is right but especially for those who took up the sword for our country. Today is Memorial Day. I pray we never forget why it is set aside as a holiday and who made it possible.







Potato Soup

Stock:
Place chicken skin and fat in about a quart of water. While the water is coming to a boil, cut up a whole onion, several stalks of celery and two carrots. Boil until the onion is clear. Pour the stock through a colander and toss the chicken skin and vegetables. Stock can be stored in the refrigerator, frozen or used immediately.

One quart chicken stock
4 cups of quartered potatoes (more or less... I never have measured it)
1/2 stick or a good size spoonful of butter/margarine
salt
pepper
more water
instant potatoes if you want the soup thick

Place the stock in a large pot bring to a boil and add the potatoes. Add water to the stock to cover the potatoes and have a good broth. Bring to a boil then turn down to medium high or place in a crock pot. Cook until potatoes are tender. You can finish it now or if you put it in a crock pot it will stay warm for several hours. You can serve it just as it is with a clear broth or add instant potatoes slowly.. a tablespoonful at a time until it is the thickness you like.

** Some people use flour to thicken their soups. I like to use instant potatoes instead of flour because it does not change the taste or become lumpy.

I remember the slow dance of mom and son at his wedding and I tried so hard not to cry but Scott put my head on his shoulder and brushed my hair. It was a beautiful day, his bride was amazing and I did not want to spoil it. As we heard the words to the song You Lift Me Up, he reminded me that his new bride would take care of him but she did not know how to make the soup he always wanted when he was sick; my homemade potato soup. I would always be welcome in his life.

A few months later I got a call from Abigail. Scott was not feeling well... could I share with her my recipe for this soup and I remembered his words. I am thankful for such a loving daughter-in-law and to know that God's plan for me is so much more. While I gave him life, my son and his wife gave me something that is so valuable to me... acceptance. I don't fully know His plan for me but I am taking steps to go forward as He leads me. Sometimes the only thing I can do is make soup. Some days that may be enough.

Isaiah 58:8 Your light will break out like the dawn.

Love,
Nana

Thursday, May 6, 2010

Why Grandmas are Grandmas and Mommies are Mommies and Strawberry Shortcake


This blog is dedicated to Abigail who is glowing as her tummy grows and her heart expands beyond anything she thought possible. She is a mommy in waiting.















Strawberry Shortcake

Fresh Strawberries
Store bought glaze
Pound cake

Cut up the strawberries, mix with glaze and serve over generous slices of pound cake. Sometimes life should be simple.


There is a story of a woman who had a baby at 60. It was considered a miracle and her friends came to visit her. She served them tea and generous portions of strawberry shortcake. They sat with her and she began to talk to them about what was new them until somebody finally asked her "where is the baby". She sat quietly for a moment then said "I am waiting for him to cry so I remember where I put him".

Our life is about stages and we don't always understand them a we go through them. It's not just about children but other things in our lives like pets. Little dogs belong with young girls who also have boundless energy. Fat cats belong with older women and grandmas. In between we can have a variety of pets; I have no pets yet both fat cats and a little dog follow me around. That might not always be the greatest for them. This morning I fed the cats but I forgot to feed dog. I started to feed him. On the way to garage to get his food, I put the bowl on the washer but then I did something else. I knew I was forgetting something when I walked into the laundry room so I came back. I tried to remember and in the meantime, I put in a load of laundry. For the life of me I could not remember what I forgot do so I did something else. That little dog was under my feet everywhere I went! I stopped for lunch. There he was under my feet again! Before I put him outside so he would not annoy me, I decided to look to see if he ate... I looked all over the kitchen and patio but I couldn't find his bowl. Finally, I spotted it in laundry room. The washer was filled with the laundry that I almost started earlier. I started the washer now 5 hours later from when I put the laundry in. I feed the dog for real now and when my tummy growled I remembered my own lunch on the table.

That's why I think grandmas are not supposed to be mommies. Grandmas and nanas have a special role to play with new babies. We smile and enjoy being part of the process. Today I learned I am too old for the little dog that follows me around, too young for a fat cat that we associate with grandmas and retirement...perhaps I need a fish.

Genesis 1:1 "in the beginning God created the heavens and the earth". He knew what he was doing then and His timeline is perfect for us now.

Love,
Nana

Mom's Day and Sun Tea




I chose this menu from a pharmacy in the '50s and 60's because it has a special memory to many people. Buntings had the best hot dogs in the world and loosing the pharmacy has left many of us missing a time of simpler things. This blog is dedicated to Roberta, Penny, and the many others who can remember what it was like to walk down our main street and feel like you were at the best place on earth. Special thanks to Penny for finding the words of the original poem that set our mothers schedules... and the revisions that all of us can apply to our lives today. Mom... this is for you. Thank you for teaching me to take life a day at a time and giving me the tools to be organized which I need to use today.

Sun Tea... according to Henry and in memory of him

Choose a glass or plastic gallon jug with a lid. Clear is the best. Fill close to the top, add 10-12 tea bags. Place in a sunny area until done. Add your favorite sweetener and lemon if desired. If you are in most places, you can have tea for dinner. Here in the desert... tea is ready before the ice cubes freeze.

Monday: Wash Day
Lord, help me wash away all my
selfishness and vanity, so I may
serve you with perfect humility
through the week ahead.

Tuesday – Ironing Day
Dear Lord, help me iron out
all the wrinkles of prejudice.
I have collected through the years
so that I may see the beauty in others.

Wednesday – Mending Day
God, help me mend my ways
so I will not set a bad
example for others.

Thursday – Cleaning Day
Lord Jesus, help me to dust
out all the many faults I
have been hiding in the
secret corners of my heart.

Friday – Shopping Day
O God, give me the grace to shop
wisely so I may purchase eternal
happiness for myself and all
others in need of love.

Saturday – Cooking Day

Help me, my Savior, to brew a
big kettle of brotherly love and
serve it with clean, sweet bread of
human kindness.

Sunday – the Lord’s Day
O God, I have prepared my house
for you. Please come into my heart
as my honored guest so I may spend
the day and the rest of my life
in your presence.

Times change... one thing I avoid is ironing and shopping is no longer reserved for Friday which was the traditional payday then. We don't do things in order then wonder why we get nothing done... we say we have "no time" for things we should and could do. I can do better than I do. We all can. It just takes more organization and having your priories spelled out. Take time for the little things and the big things will not seem quite so burdensome. Our time is now... it was chosen and ordained by God for His purposes. Don't miss a moment of it in worry or regret. Tell the ones you love that you do and resolve the pain in your heart between yourself and your loved one and yourself and God. Today is Thursday... guess I better get to cleaning.

Psalms 139:16 All the days for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.

Love,
Nana

Saturday, April 17, 2010

Water Lillies and S'mores



This story is dedicated to my childhood friends Sandy and Penny and to my daughter Susan who finds beauty in the simplest things. It's for Abigail also because she taught Scott how to make S'mores after they were married. How did I manage to not teach him that?



S'mores
Hershey chocolate bars
Toasted marshmallows
Graham crackers
Friends and a campfire

Gather with friends at a campfire. Toast marshmallows over the fire on a stick or metal clothes hanger. Place the toasted marshmallow on top of the Hershey bar which is placed first on one graham cracker. Top with a second graham cracker and enjoy the melted chocolate and gooey center with giggling friends.

I love this picture of water lillies. I remember the first time I saw these beautiful flowers on a lake when I was a young teenager at church camp. My friend Sandy talked me into taking a rowboat to see them up close. It was not until I wanted to touch them that she told me she could not swim and had never been in a rowboat. She was clueless as to how to get back to shore. I was so surprised and asked her "why did you suggest we come if you did not know how to row or swim?". She said "I trusted you and knew if you did not know how, you would say 'no'". Great! I probably weighed 80 pounds and here I am in the middle of a lake with no other boats around with a girl who could not swim. Luckily, the camp had life vests in the boats so I was relieved that if she fell in, there was a chance she would not sink.

I touched the water lillies. They were slimy underneath and the roots went to the bottom of the water. They were not magically floating flowers as they appeared from a distance. They had roots nobody could see and their beauty is not fragile. They are meant to be seen but not swept up like other flowers. I was so thankful that I got the chance to see them up close but quickly gave a quick "thanks" under my breath to my dad and brothers who taught me to row a boat and swim.

My friend Penny is like those water lillies. From a distance, she has always seemed so serene and her quiet personality made our school friends think she was shy. To some degree she was and is but up close, she remains steadfast to her faith and no waves in life are too tough for her to weather. Look closer at your friends. You may get a glimpse of beauty that you did not see before, but God always has enjoyed.

Proverbs 16:3 "commit your works to the Lord and your thoughts will be established".

Love,
Nana

Crossroads and Pineapple Upsidedown Cake


This blog is just for Susan. She is at a crossroads in her life and has decided that making a decision is better than just staring at the choices and wondering what to do.


Pineapple Upside down Cake

3 1/2 T butter or margarine
1/2 C brown sugar
1 can (No 2) chunks(the short can)
6 maraschino cherries
1 1/4 C sifted flour
2 t baking powder
1/4 t salt
1/3 C shortening
1 t vanilla
1/2 C sugar
1 egg
1/2 C pineapple juice

Melt the butter or margarine in 6 to 8 inch baking dish. Sprinkle sugar over it once it is melted. Arrange pineapple (1/2 inch thickness)into flower-shaped pattern; place well drained cherry in the center of each flower. Let that sit while you prepare the batter.

Sift four, baking powder and salt together. Set aside.

Add vanilla to shortening and gradually add the sugar creaming until fluffy. Add egg to this mixture and beat with mixer until blended. Add flour and pineapple juice alternately to this mixture, stirring until blended after each addition.

Spread the batter over the pineapple. Bake at 350 degrees for 50-60 minutes. Turn onto flat plate immediately. Serve warm or cold.

This was the very first desert recipe that was successful for me. I made it first when I was in junior high school and trusted it would always come out perfect. Other cakes did not turn out so well. There were no plastic tubs of frosting to buy in the grocery store and I just could not seem to get any of the recipes from books to look like the picture. Sometimes the results was a complete failure so I came to rely on what I knew would work. I left the other cakes to those who could make them with ease. You just have to know what you can and can't do well.

Susan has some major decisions ahead as she enters college and she will find that some of the things she loves to do (like me making upside down cake) will not help her in the studies there. She will learn not only about the subjects but about herself. For the first time in her life she will have many choices instead of a few under the shelter and guidance of her parents. Some of the choices others present to her will be energetic and insistent with loud voices... "come on. It will be fun! You are on your own and it is your choice... you are over 18 you don't have to ask permission from anyone!" If the voices are too loud or make her feel like "no" is her best answer, I hope she listens to the logical side of her brain but if it will be fun and she is just not sure of herself, I hope she does experience life at it's fullest. She chose the college all by herself, researched it then invited me and her dad to tour it with her. She registered for classes for both summer and fall and did her own research for her best financial options to pay for school. She understands she does not have to ask permission for her choices but she also seems to grasp that with choices also comes responsibility. Today she is going to work. She has saved about ninety percent of what she has earned to pay for school. She is head and shoulders above most of the people in her graduating class in being prepared for this crossroads they all are at now. We are very proud of her confidence.

One of my favorite hymns is Softly and Tenderly. The voice of the Master is both soft and tender. He will call you to Himself and sometimes He knocks at your hearts door and the sound is very soft... He is a gentleman and will not enter your heart or life without invitation. He may ask you to befriend someone others shun because they are shy and do not seem to have much to offer the group. Sometimes He may just want to sit with you and hear your burdens but He is always soft and tender in His approach. I have asked Him to be with Susan as I have asked Him to be with all my children. The wonderful thing is she also invited Him to accompany her on life's journey so I know He is with her anywhere and everywhere she goes. He will help her sort through the loud voices of the world and draw her to Himself. Invite Him into your life and He will help you with your crossroads too.

Revelations 3:20 I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door I will come in and eat with him and he with Me.

Love,
Nana

Monday, April 12, 2010

Just a day in the life...

If you have made it this far into my blog, you are very patient. Hopefully, whoever you are, you will find humor in this and not think I'm a complete fruitcake. I am not complete. I am a fruitcake in progress.













There is a story about a retired couple who were watching television. The man got up to go in the kitchen and asked his wife if she wanted anything while he was there. She said... "sure, I'll take a dish of ice cream". He asked "anything else" and she said "sure add some chocolate syrup". He asked "anything else" and she said "sure add a few sprinkles". He asked "anything else" and she smilled sweetly and said "no thank you". He returned a few minutes later with a plate of scrambled eggs and bacon. She looked at him and smiled and said "you forgot the toast".

I was also going into the kitchen and asked if my husband wanted coffee. He said "sure"... he was not as amused when I finished the dishes first because I forgot that I promised to bring him coffee. Guess that story was not too far from real life.

Sorry 'bout that...

1 Corinthians 11:33 When you come together to eat, wait for one another.

Who knew good manners was actually Biblical? I just thought it was a "southern thing" to wait until everybody is served.

Love,
Nana

Friday, April 2, 2010

If Friday is "Good"... what is Saturday? and Sugar Cookies




This blog is dedicated to someone whose name I don't know because we are anxiously awaiting the day of their birth. A new baby is coming to our family in a few months. You are surrounded by tremendous love as you grow... and we wait.






Sugar Cookies

1 cup Shortening
1 cup Sugar
2 Eggs (beaten)
2 t Vanilla (GF)
1 cup Sour Cream
5 cups Tom Sawyer GF flour
2 t Baking Powder (GF)
1 t Soda
1 ¼ t Salt

Cream shortening and sugar. Combine eggs. vanilla and sour cream. Sift flour, baking powder, salt, and soda together. Combine flour mixture alternately to creamed mixture and egg mixture. Chill completely, roll dough out to one quarter (1/4) inch thick, cut cookies with 2 ½ inch cutter.

Bake at 375 F about 15 minutes or until done.
Makes about 100 cookies.


What is Saturday?

Two weeks ago today I borrowed my son's car. It was supposed to be a good thing... he needed to go out of town and my car was a little newer. I enjoyed driving his car so it was good for both of us... for about 10-15 minutes. That's how long it took for me to drive it to the auto shop when I saw the battery light come on. I got out of the car, walked in to speak to the mechanic and about two minutes later it burst into flames. The engine was destroyed in spite of the quick action of the mechanics to put the fire out. Who could have predicted that? Now we wait for the insurance company to complete their investigation so they can pay for his car and perhaps he get a better one. With their first baby coming in a few months, it will be fun for him and his wife to shop for a car. The waiting is not fun. The fire was not expected... we know what the outcome will be but the in-between is not so much fun.

Today is set aside as a day we remember that Jesus was born for one purpose... to pay the price of death for our sins. Even those who claim not to believe declare His truth every time they say what the date is! The year is 2010 A.D. ..."in the year of our Lord". Before then it was B.C., before Christ,when they were waiting for Him to arrive. On that Friday so many years ago when scripture was fulfilled, there was great sadness on earth and in heaven for His suffering. It is overwhelming to even imagine it. This beautiful person who showed love and compassion to so many people saw no compassion returned to Him. It is understandable that He cried out "my God, why has thou forsaken Me?" His final words of "it is finished" must have been so painful to His mother and those who cried near Him as they watched Him suffer and die.

We celebrate the first day of the week when He showed Himself to those who loved Him... but what about Saturday? What about the time when there was still sadness and confusion and those who loved Him retreated to places of shelter and hiding... what about Saturday?

We all have our Saturdays in our life. Something happens that is overwhelming and we just don't know what to do with the time between the difficult period between when the sun stopped shining... and when it begins again. Last year there was celebration when another little baby was expected but on a dark day in our life, the baby was called back to heaven. It felt the same to me then as it did in April 1992 when the same thing happened to my daughter. I felt like some one carved a piece of my heart out of my chest because I could not take away the pain I saw in the eyes of my child. Later that year, we held Paige and later this year, we will hold another little baby but the in between times... the times when great courage and faith are required is our Saturday. Whatever you Saturday is, know that God is with you and He will never ever leave you. A new journey began for the followers of Christ on Sunday. A new journey will begin with you just as it will with us in a few months.

May you celebrate the resurection of our Lord and not worry so much about the nonsense that has been added of fancy clothes and Easter through the worlds eyes. Look around you... the flowers bloom even in the desert declaring new life on earth after a long winter. You will be renewed and you will know that between Friday and Sunday there has to be Saturday for us to heal from the wounds of Friday. May you know the meaning of the blessing Jesus spoke "Peace be with you".

Love,
Nana

John 20:21 Peace be with you! As the Father has sent me, so send I you

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Life is a journey and Corned Beef Cabbage


Today is St. Patrick's Day... a day we all wear green for fun and think about legends that seem to live forever. According to legend one man made a difference in the life of many. I dedicate this blog to all my readers who step up to the plate because they care about others. The story is not my own... enjoy.

Corned Beef Cabbage

Corned Beef Brisket (about 1/2 pound per person)Prepacked with seasonings
1 or 2 heads of green cabbage
2 potatoes per person
lots of carrots
2-3 onions

Boil the Brisket according to package... takes 2-3 hours. Remove meat add chopped vegetables and boil until tender. Serve with hot bread; mustard and horseradish on the side according to personal taste.

According to Wayne...

When I was a young boy, my father had one of the first telephones in our neighborhood. I remember the polished, old case fastened to the wall. The shiny receiver hung on the side of the box. I was too little to reach the telephone, but used to listen with fascination when my mother talked to it. Then I discovered that somewhere inside the wonderful device lived an amazing person. Her name was "Information Please" and there was nothing she did not know. "Information Please" could supply anyone's number and the correct time.

My personal experience with the genie-in-a-bottle came one day while my mother was visiting a neighbor. Amusing myself at the tool bench in the basement, I whacked my finger with a hammer, the pain was terrible, but there seemed no point in crying because there was no one home to give sympathy. I walked around the house sucking my throbbing finger, finally arriving at the stairway. The telephone! Quickly, I ran for the footstool in the parlor and dragged it to the landing. Climbing up, I unhooked the receiver in the parlor and held it to my ear. "Information, please" I said into the mouthpiece just above my head. A click or two and a small clear voice spoke into my ear.

"Information."
"I hurt my finger..." I wailed into the phone, the tears came readily enough now that I had an audience.
"Isn't your mother home?" came the question.
"Nobody's home but me," I blubbered.
"Are you bleeding?" the voice asked.
"No," I replied. "I hit my finger with the hammer and it hurts."
"Can you open the icebox?" she asked.
I said I could. "Then chip off a little bit of ice and hold it to your finger," said the voice. After that, I called "Information Please" for everything. I asked her for help with my geography, and she told me where Philadelphia was. She helped me with my math. She told me my pet chipmunk that I had caught in the park just the day before, would eat fruit and nuts. Then, there was the time Petey, our pet canary, died..

I called, "Information Please," and told her the sad story. She listened, and then said things grown-ups say to soothe a child. But I was not consoled I asked her, "Why is it that birds should sing so beautifully and bring joy to all families, only to end up as a heap of feathers on the bottom of a cage?"
She must have sensed my deep concern, for she said quietly, " Wayne , always remember that there are other worlds to sing in." Somehow I felt better.

Another day I was on the telephone, "Information Please."
"Information," said in the now familiar voice. "How do I spell fix?" I asked.
All this took place in a small town in the Pacific Northwest . When I was nine years old, we moved across the country to Boston . I missed my friend very much. "Information Please" belonged in that old wooden box back home and I somehow never thought of trying the shiny new phone that sat on the table in the hall. As I grew into my teens, the memories of those childhood conversations never really left me. Often, in moments of doubt and perplexity I would recall the serene sense of security I had then. I appreciated now how patient, understanding, and kind she was to have spent her time on a little boy.

A few years later, on my way west to college, my plane put down in Seattle . I had about a half-hour or so between planes. I spent 15 minutes or so on the phone with my sister, who lived there now. Then without thinking what I was doing, I dialed my hometown operator and said, "Information Please." Miraculously, I heard the small, clear voice I knew so well.

"Information."
I hadn't planned this, but I heard myself saying, "Could you please tell me how to spell fix?"

There was a long pause. Then came the soft spoken answer, "I guess your finger must have healed by now." I laughed, "So it's really you," I said. "I wonder if you have any idea how much you meant to me during that time ?" I wonder," she said, "if you know how much your call meant to me. I never had any children and I used to look forward to your calls." I told her how often I had thought of her over the years and I asked if I could call her again when I came back to visit my sister.
"Please do", she said. "Just ask for Sally."

Three months later I was back in Seattle . A different voice answered,
"Information." I asked for Sally.
"Are you a friend?" she said.
"Yes, a very old friend," I answered.
"I'm sorry to have to tell you this, "She said. "Sally had been working part time the last few years because she was sick. She died five weeks ago."
Before I could hang up, she said, "Wait a minute, did you say your name was Wayne ?" "Yes." I answered.
"Well, Sally left a message for you.. She wrote it down in case you called.
Let me read it to you." The note said, "Tell him there are other worlds to sing in... he'll know what I mean."
I thanked her and hung up. I knew what Sally meant. Never underestimate the impression you may make on others.

Psalms 75:1 We give thanks to you, oh God

Love,
Nana

Friday, March 5, 2010

Somewhere in AZ and Amazing Chili

 

Ever had one of those days that you just know you are in the right place but wonder what you should be doing? Sometimes it is easier to just look at the world around you than be part of it...

Amazing Chili

3 cups fresh cooked pinto beans (okay... 2 cans of kidney beans if you have to)
1 - 1 1/2 pounds ground turkey or beef
2 15 oz cans stewed tomatoes with chipolte
1 15 oz can tomato sauce
1 tablespoon flour
2 tablespoon chili powder
1 tablespoon dried basil, crushed
1 cup water
1 large onion (about 1 cup) cut in large pieces
1/2 teaspoon black pepper

Shredded cheddar cheese

Brown the meat in a skillet. Mix flour with spices and add to meat; coat well. Add the water and bring to a boil. Pour ingredients into the crock pot and add everything else. Cook on low setting at least 30 minutes... better if simmers longer.

Serve with topping of shredded cheese.

Sometimes I get so bogged down with making everything "right" that I become afraid of stepping out of my own "self-created" box. I have had the opportunity to learn many things but stayed on the sidelines because that was more comfortable. I will not always say something inspirational in my blog or in life and that is okay because I am not expected to inspire. This week was a hard one with my work. My goals and deadlines were set by someone else (which is what happens when you work for somebody). I did not make the goals that were set for me because they were unrealistic and my not making the goal set things in motion for more realistic goals to be set for our team in the future. It's what some would call "bitter-sweet". Without planning to be, I was thrust from the sidelines into the game and the spotlight. It's a place I am not comfortable being but if it makes things better for the future, the temporary discomfort is worth it.

When I was a teenager I asked God to lead me into the life that would best serve Him. I thought I would do something in the medical field, instead I became and am wife and mom with a few other adventures along the way. Guess that is who I am supposed to be as well as "Nana" now. What am I supposed to do? The very best I can with each day and hope it is enough. Thank you for reading my blog... I know you have a choice.

Psalms 16:11 Lord you will show me the path of life and give me joy of Your presence forever.

Love,
Nana

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Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Technology

 
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The recipe this time: Sometimes you just have to order Pizza or Chinese take out!


This pretty well sums up my time these days. Between taking care of family and working two jobs, I am finding that the technology that my family finds helpful drives me right up the wall. The last two months I have taken a web class and am getting more comfortable with using digital photos but there are still times when I say "how did I do that last time?" and "oops".

I have an "inspiration" typed just below my computer screen that has yellowed tape it has been there so long. "When you're willing to work through whatever challenges and obstacles may come your way, it's possible. When you persist through all the ups and downs while always looking forward, it's possible."

If only it were that easy to resolve things of life. I am trying to learn the ways of the present and mix it with things that I have learned over the years. I know about "stuff". Knowledge of many things does not equal understanding. In all you do, get understanding of things of the heart and of God.

Proverbs 4:5,7 Get wisdom, get understanding... though it cost you all you have, get understanding.

Love,
Nana

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Just around the bend...


This blog, up to now, has been about recipes and short stories about people I love and admire. Usually it has something to eat but instead this one is about something to digest.. the miracles of dreams. The song is from a collection of Susan Boyle and the story includes my friend and heroine, Katreena. Thank you for being you.

Who I was Born to Be by Tim Mikael

When I was a child
I could see the wind in the trees
and I heard a song in the breeze
It was there singing out my name.

But I am not a girl
I've known the taste of defeat
and I've finally grown to believe
it will all come around again.

Though I may not know the answers
I can finally say "I am free"
and if the questions led me here then
I am who I was born to be

And so here am I
open arms and ready to stand
I've got my world in my hands
and it feels like my turn to fly.

Though I may not know the answers
I can finally say "I am free"
and if the questions led me here then
I am who I was born to be

When I was a child there were
flowers the bloomed in the night
unafraid to take in the light
unashamed to have braved the dark

And though I may not know the answers
I can finally say "I am free"
and if the questions led me here then
I am who I was born to be... I am who I was born to be.

Visions, Dreams, Goals and Accountability


This past Sunday our pastor spoke on accountability and I wanted to look above my head to see if there was a spotlight on me. His words hit so close to home for me. Nobody can really see into our hearts but we all have accountability for our choices and actions or lack thereof. In her book "Dream Circles", Katreena speaks of the connections between us and others as we seek to be a light for them. It is not something she just decided one day to write about. It is how she has lived her life. In the book we are taken into the world of young child who witnesses another child hurting as the victim of teasing. The little girl did not stand by silently but sought to be a light in a dark corner and a positive influence on others. With the cooperation of a wise teacher, she held the other children accountable for their choice to tease then gave them a choice to change their behavior and be a friend to the little girl. Katreena lives her life reaching out to the ones who are the last chosen for the team or who are seeking answers to life. She works with students and business people who are at crossroads and don't know which way to turn. Gently she guides them in a positive direction. We can all do that, if we will seek the opportunity. A frest start is just around the bend... sometimes we just need the courage to go a little further in the right direction.

Who we are and how we think as children influences what paths we choose in life. The dreams we have, the goals we set, our visions and our actions all begin when we first "heard the song in the breeze". I pray for courage, wisdom and guidance as I step outside of my familiar circle that I will see the person who struggles that I can help. It may mean I have to go around my own bend in the process. I gain courage as I encourage others to keep trying.

As this song says "although I may not know the answers, I can finally say 'I am free'". I know I can't change the past... not the things within my control then or things that never were that I tried to control. I am accountable to God for who I am and what I do with my life. Katreena has the right idea. For you to have a richer fuller life, you need to draw others to you.

No, I don't know the answers and maybe that is what actually makes me free... for "if the questions led me here then, I am who I was born to be".

Proverbs 27:1"As iron sharpens iron, so one man sharpens another"

Love,
Nana

Saturday, January 9, 2010

Sweet Tea and Things That Are Hard to Do


This blog is dedicated to my sons Phil and Scott who were strong in recent months when it would have been so easy to be angry. They did the only thing they could... hold their wives close and try to dry their tears.





Sweet Tea


Place 10 tea bags in quart of water. Bring to a boil. Take off the stove and let steep for 5-10 mins. Remove tea bags and place in gallon container. Add ice and water to fill container. Add sugar or favorite sweetener and lemon if desired.

That sounds so simple. A speaker in a seminar a few years ago said "Americans are crazy... they boil water to make tea hot then add ice to make it cold. They then add sugar to make it sweet then lemon to make it sour". When you look at it that way.. it does sound crazy but it is the way we are.

In Ephesians 4:32 we are instructed to "be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you". That sounds so simple. We have all made mistakes in our life and asked God to forgive us but sometimes we want to have the last word... and is not a very kind word when we say it.

When I was in first grade in school my mother brushed my curly hair into Shirley Temple curls. To adults I was cute... to other children, I was "different" and they teased me about that. By the time I was in fourth grade I had no idea what to do with the curls and I was teased even more. One day a little boy who had teased me the day before came to me and told me "what I did was wrong yesterday. Others teased you and I took part in that. Can you forgive me?" If this was a "made for TV" story I would have said "yes" and we would have been best friends forever but that is not what I did. I said "No you are only doing this because the teacher told you to." He tried but could not convince me otherwise. He walked away and I saw the teacher trying to console a very upset little boy. I knew at that moment his apology was sincere but pride kept me from going to him and accepting his apology.

Now if this were a made for TV movie, he would have grown up to be an axe murderer or we would have met as adults and talked about that day again. Neither happened. He grew up to be a respected attorney. We never had another conversation and we never had another class together. Sometimes you only get one chance to do the right thing. He tried to and what I did was worse than what he did by teasing me. I do remember he never joined the other children again who teased me but I missed my chance to give something very valuable... forgiveness.

In the recent months I have seen so much sorrow between people that I care about. Richard had tremendous courage when he came to me and tried to take responsibility for what he thought was wrong. Sometimes when we do something that hurts another, we try to make it right. When others are willing to forgive and we both grow from it but sometimes that does not happen. If you have hurt someone... say you are sorry and if they choose not to forgive you pray for God to help you with your weaknesses so you will not hurt them or others. If someone hurt you... don't wait for them to say they are sorry to forgive them. It will make you stronger and release you from the chains that anchor you to your pain.

Psalms 19:14 May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in thy sight, O Lord my strength and my Redeemer.

Love,
Nana

Saturday, January 2, 2010

Desert Pizza and The Free Ice Cream

This blog is dedicated to Tim. Today is his birthday and it is a time of celebration and hope.

Desert Pizza

Sugar Cookie Dough (your favorite recipe or pre-packaged mix works fine)
2 cups confectionery sugar
2 packages cream cheese
sliced or diced fruit (kiwi, strawberries, blueberries and pineapple look good)

Spread cookie dough on greased cookie pan about 1/4 inch thick. Cook in 350 degree oven until slightly crisp (about 10-15 minutes). Remove from oven and let cool. Beat with mixer the sugar and cream cheese until creamy. Spread on cooled cookie crust and cover with fruit. Slice and serve.** bananas not recommended unless serving immediately as they turn brown quickly**

Free Ice Cream

Sometimes I wonder how God pairs up moms and babies. Every single time I became aware that I was going to have a child added to my life I have asked how God could He possibly trust me with the life of one of his precious little ones. I felt then and today tremendously honored that God chose me to serve Him as a mother. I want to share with you a story that happened on Tim's fourth birthday.

We were visiting with his grandmother and her home is about two city blocks from a busy railroad track. The usually quiet street was packed with cars to see the train that had jumped the tracks and landed in a field. Nobody was hurt... it was a freight train but cars lay on their side in the deep ravine and the men were working to salvage any cargo they could and to keep away curious people. Suddenly one of the men started walking toward the crowd and pointed to several teenage boys to come with him to a train car. He then started handing them cartons of ice cream to take into the crowd. They formed a chain and gave ice cream to any family who wanted it. My mother-in-law started laughing and when we got our carton we walked to her house to have Tim's birthday cake with the ice cream. The carton was too big to fit in her freezer so she called neighbors to bring something to put ice cream in for their families. A few days later, Tim tried to tell the teacher and children in his Head Start class what happened. Of course by the time he told the story, Tim was driving the train. He has always had an imagination that kept us on our toes!

Happy birthday, Tim. May your life be blessed as you continue to love and bless others.

Luke 1:37 For nothing is impossible with God.

Love,
Nana